30/06/11 was a busy day

30/06/11..we have a volleyball competition which held by our koko-volleyball team.
It is fun!..but tired.
we went to IPKB around 9am to prepared the place until 1230pm...
and went to IPKB for competition started around 330pm until 730pm..
very tired, and sunburn...
but, have a lots of memories from this activities.
XD.
><..my finger very very pain!!!!....want patah liao lah my finger..can write for exam or not??huh

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now I'm very tired.
but before I sleep, I want to put a wish to one of my friend.
01/07/11, is her birthday.
when another asked me, is it you still remember this girl's birthday,
I' just "sure, mine 7/1, her is 1/7."...7117...XD
First, thank you very much to one her best friend, lot.
she was remind me come down for celebration 3 time, before going to IPKB, on the bus going back umk from IPKB, and msg....so I decided to come down, she....only the she!  p,u must appreciated have such friend.

"Hey, girl, Happy birthday, 21 years old already, what is your wishes?"
"I wish you happy, lucky and healthy"...(seem the wish is same to the wishes I wrote on christmas card,bt..^^)
"and ,I'm sorry cnt bring you a wonderful birthday celebration, what I can said is it not in the correct time and sorry I dun noe what I can do...."
so, what I just wish you here as silent as possible I can...
hope you can receive my wish~..

p/s: the memories btw us....

The photo we were taken when we went to kbmall together.

the photo : explore-vet

the photo of us by very accidentally

photo of us with group of ppl.

Just now I feeling so sad as I had tried to find all my laptop and external-hardisk for our photo,
but it is sad...we have not more photo together...
from dogathon,kempen kucing,malam raya, explote vet, vetsa kuala gandah, zoo taiping and cameron,vetnight 01 and vetnigh 02, vetday, ladang visited....
then, the photo above jz our photo together...
huh~now I'm understand. ><

whatever lah, from you , i think I learn a lot things recently!!!!!!..
Happy birthday~

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and I very thank to one of my friend who had msg me when I'm in complicated mood last night,....
Tq~ XD

摩羯座 的我

摩羯座
你不理解摩羯的想法，没关系，他们一点也不在意，并且继续坚守着自己的原则。他们的确不怕现实的残酷，因为早已做好充分的准备，不管是身体上，还是心理上。所以会把浪漫的幻想伪装成坚强的毅力，然后不断的努力。过程再辛苦，摩羯也不怕，而他们怕的就是付出得不到回报，就如同千辛万苦的爬到山顶，却发现什么也没有，心像是被掏空般的难受，只有用眼泪发泄心中的不满。 （感到很对！）


水瓶座
友情是水瓶的强项，也是他们的弱点。说强项，是因为他们对待朋友一直都很真心，可以从中获得很多的乐趣，在遇到麻烦时，也不用担心孤军作战，会得到朋友的鼎力相助。说弱点，则是因为一旦失去，就会完全迷失方向，不知如何是好。比如被心心念着的朋友忘记，还以为对方也一样的真诚，却发现一直都是自作多情，这叫水瓶怎么忍得住伤心流泪。


双鱼座
有人说：男人哭了，就是真正爱了，女人哭了，就是真正放弃了。而一心想要更多爱，柔情似水的双鱼，若是忍不住哭了，那就一定是被爱伤透了心。对于自己喜欢的人，双鱼总是全心全意的付出所有，而对方一个温柔的笑容，就能满足他们的心。一次伤害并不能打击到双鱼对爱的追求，只有在一次又一次的期望破灭之后，对方毫不留情的转身离开之后，他们才会彻底死心，用眼泪掩饰伤口。


白羊座
作为有着强烈好奇心，又视第一为理所当然的白羊，是个充满自信，又坚强无比的星座。面对困难和竞争，他们从来都是斗志高昂，抱着水来土掩，兵来将挡的信念，为了心中的理想而一战到底。在白羊看来，伤心总是一晃即逝的瞬间，没必要在意，也记不住，就更别提会为之哭泣了。只有在他们经过努力换来嘉奖，追求的目标也终于达成，才会兴奋的飙出高兴的眼泪。


金牛座
金牛的稳定性极强，要么不做打算，一旦做出决定，就没有更改的必要，因为他们都是经过深思熟虑才会下定决心。当然，金牛也很相信自己的判断力，可以说是不打没准备的战。有些内敛的他们，不会喜怒无常，换一种说法，就是行事相当低调，不会用眼泪来吸引别人的注意力，也不会把眼泪当做表现的工具，除非一直期待的希望落空，不但没有安慰，无处倾诉，还得不到别人的谅解，金牛就会找个没人的地方默默流泪。


双子座
在刚开始人生长河行驶的时候，双子并没有想过停泊港口的存在，或者说是认为没必要。毕竟他们的兴趣太多，被吸引出走的可能性也太大，为了不让自己被什么牵绊住，双子总是在一个又一个的停泊点来来又去去，却不做过多的停留。也许是物极必反，漂泊久了的人，一旦陷入到感情的漩涡，就会想要天长地久，而这样的理想若是被现实的残酷所取代，相爱的恋人不得不分手，双子会是哭的最凶的那一个。


巨蟹座
温柔如巨蟹，是非常富有同情心的。而忧郁的情怀也因此时常环绕着他们，可以说，巨蟹心怀天下，总是想要把爱送到每个角落，让所有人都感受到温暖，而他们自己却没有办法做到全身而退。于是巨蟹总是在看到别人不幸哭泣，而跟着忍不住流泪，不管是发生在身边的，还是在电视上看到的，只要那个场景有一丝感动人心，巨蟹就会泪如雨下，甚至失声痛哭，仿佛那些不幸是发生在自己身上一般。

狮子座
狮子的确是个自信到自大，自负到自恋的星座。他们做事光明磊落，不拘小节，总是抓紧时间，充分享受着爱与被爱的幸福，并且乐此不疲的追逐着在世人看来俗气的功成名就。不仅是为了获取炫耀的资本，满足自尊心，也是为了地久天长的爱恋。骄傲如狮子，怎么可能轻易落泪。一直都自信的以为回报的情感会比自己给予的要多，一心一意也是理所当然，可是对方不只分心，还没有预兆的背叛了，角落里狮子终于忍不住泪流满面。


处女座
一直以来，处女都把完美当做毕生追求的理想，而他们也无时无刻在为之做出努力。不管是学习，工作，还是恋爱，就算是一场游戏，处女也会很用心的做到有始有终。丰富的情感，和华丽的知性美，不是伪装的高雅，而是坚定的信念。所以，这场奢华的追逐赛，就算不是用尽心血，也是用心良苦。一旦他们愿意放弃一直坚守的标准，真诚以对，牺牲一直珍惜的完美，却换来不屑的嘲讽，处女无路可退，只剩下忍不住的哭泣。
天秤座
天秤因为害怕空虚的寂寞，所以会很温顺的接受可行的的一切安排，不是不懂反抗，而是认为没有反抗的必要。而他们也是极易烦躁的星座，不是不再善良，而是多愁善感的太过面面俱到，只要一方失衡，天秤的心也跟着乱起来。下决定从来就不是天秤的强项，一颗容易被扰乱的心，一旦陷入矛盾的挣扎，就会如火山爆发般不可收拾。到底应该选什么，究竟应该怎么办，焦急的天秤会忍不住流泪，在哭泣中寻求镇定。

天蝎座
天蝎若是爱上一个人，会爱到骨子里，爱到不给自己留任何退路。当然，不是不给对方选择的权利，只不过一旦约定，就不容反悔。你可以直接的告诉他们，不再爱了，但不可以背地里玩欺骗，要知道爱极了是会生恨的。坚强的天蝎对于外界的纷纷扰扰可以不动声色，可一旦面对爱人的欺骗，就忍不住偷偷掉眼泪。


射手座
对于自由的追求，射手一直都很积极，毫不怠慢。但生活毕竟是现实，而现实也的确是不容抗拒的，为了生存，我们不得不接受一些约束，习惯一些不自在。所以，当乐观开朗的射手，眼看着快乐，却没办法去抓住，感到力不从心，为了工作，为了安稳，越来越觉得失去了自我的时候，就会忍不住的大哭一场，然后不停的问自己，为什么，为什么会变成这样。

一个人

一个人的晚餐，
有时是多么的自在，
有时却是如此的忧伤，
有时却心不在焉的乱想着。

一个人的道路上，
有时是多么的自由，
有时却是如此的寂寞，
有时却迷失自我地乱走着。

一个人的生活，
有时是多么的自豪，
有时却是如此的孤独，
有时却没有目标地退化着。

I like this sentences from her~ ^^

Do you think you are good enough?

Your action has proven your immaturity.

ps: I am sorry, and you should also be sorry for your stupid action

I agreed with you girl......XD .

btw, if i hurt u too, then sorry er...I really just said out what my thinking ,but I still proud u r clever betul-betul lah!!! haha. ^^

有时候～

有时候，我不是不理你，只是在等你先开口。

有时候，真的好想跟你讲话，但又很怕你嫌我烦。

有时候，我只是需要一个可以说话的人，多希望那个人是你。

有时候，我真想你能懂我，即使我什么都不说。

有时候，总有种想哭的冲动，却不知道为什么。

有时候，我在乎的不是你所说的，而是那些你没有说的。

有时候，我只想有个人陪在我身边，多希望那个人是你。 

有时候，我多希望你呆在我身边，无需说什么，只是一句： 你好吗？

有时候，我就是如此的软落。

今天的我，开始欢迎喜欢我的人来我的部落格！ (only welcome the people who like me,ok) ^^

才刚睡醒
（是个装了好多好多的疲累而有的午觉）
感到放松，因为总有个机会好好休息了。
最近有蛮多的活动，
兽医系晚宴，
兽医系开放日，
还没忙完，当中又得写报告，
演讲等等，
负责的工作做到深夜三点，
到房里还得带着昏昏欲睡的头脑，
写出份报告。
呼呼～都快变成熊猫了～

今天，在口试中，
我真的感到后悔为什么总把老爸的话当屁话了～
我老爸，他是个历史爱好者，尤其是对马来西亚这闷死人的历史～
当然，人名他肯定不会懂，但当中发生的是，
他却能一一说出～
我也不确定他所说的是对还是错，但我老爸的头脑和声音及好脸可是能和她比！！
她，就是我班政策历史最厉害的那个人吧！每一个题目都能回答！
我可真的服了她！真的很佩服！！
要是我的头脑有她那么一半那该多好呀！！！
可是，她却让人没有了回答的机会～
呼呼～
因为看见了一个朋友在面子书写出了他对她的意见，
平时的我是不会理会他那在面子书对某某的批评，
但今天的批评，我却放了一个“喜欢”。
还留下了一个留言。
其实我老早就知道她会是酱的一个人～抢答个不停～
但还是算了，反正我也不会～
但她可真的～很烦～
 最终，她发现了我们在面子书的留言～
炸到了～
她生气咯～
哈哈～还好，我的留言有赞她聪明～
哈哈，如果往好的想，她应该得开心啊！
我可是很少称赞人的哦～哈哈。
 完蛋了，我有惹事了～
为何我的生活这么的充满个挑战了～
哈哈～


说真的，我慢慢的感到面子书可是个惹祸的最佳祸首！
有是只是想把心里话用最简单的几句句子表达出来，
但在无意中，
还是伤到了别人，再伤到了自己。
所以呢！
还是在自己的部落格留下生活点滴，
有兴趣了解者就自己进来看看就好了，
面子书，呼呼～太开放了～
我想，部落格，应该不会伤到任何人吧！
因为这是我的天地，
我可没逼任何人来看哦～
所以我要写什么就什么吧！！！哈哈。

一天一天的长大，
经验就一天一天的多。
去的地方一天比一天多，
看到的认识的人就一次比一次多。
我想呀！
人生嘛！就这么一次！
为何不好好的活出自己呢！！！
哈哈～

说真的，也许因为在外生活太就了，
认为，
在自己的生活里，
最不能切少的就是： 自己的观察和判断了。
对某事的观察和判断，对某人的观察和判断，
有了自己对某事某人的基本概念，
再做出了自己的想法及看法，
有必要是才与他人的看法做比较，
这就是我判断人事物 的做法了～
我想，
一个有自己成熟的人，应该会这么做吧～

人生短短几十年，
有谁不想活出一片属于自己的蓝天呢！
活出自己，
不被他人影响看法，
不被他人动摇想法及目标，
不被控制真正的自己，
不被他人控制着自己的心灵，
不被自己的目的而迷失自己，
有着自己的权威，
有着自己的聪明，
有着自己的理想，
有着自己的道德，
有着自己的原则，
还有这一颗真善，
这应该就是自己的一片蓝天了～


是的，该停下来，有活动呢～
今天我决定开放我的部落格，
只欢迎喜欢我的人，
希望喜欢我的人，
也不需要到处宣传我的部落格，好吗？哈哈。
欢迎来到我的生活～

new update..

recently, I'm busy with prepared for Vet day.
Yesterday was our open ceremony.Its well, although tired.
Tonight, I'm still same, back to room around 2am, its better than last two night which back on around 3 and 330am....just prepared for our job..exhausted! but......nice..
I have nothing to say actually,
because my feeling is quite complicated and dun understand.
But, I just go ahead with my job....
keep silent..
keep off mouth..
keep off heart...
keep off eyes...
keep off feeling...
keep off angry...
keep off dreaming...
keep off thinking...
keep off guessing..
keep off negative..
keep away from someone who like to talk behind ppl..
and keep away from the people dun believe at me...
then....I just felt my life is so lightly and not need to care too much~.
busy and busy my life..
anesthesia my nerve in thinking....
Just believe God, not judge....because we just a simple man...
stop judge, away judge,
and just open heart, open mind...
everything is well...~ ^^
okie, 4am now....
need to sleep and wake a early up for Vet-day...GAMPATEH!!!

busy recent~

Recent day, I'm busy with some VET activities...
Vetnight~
Vetday~

huh~~~..
Vetnight was organized on last night.
This Vet-night is okie okie nia...nothing special feeling~
but I felt they were lack of time in practice and some part was boring.
but overall was okie....

Lazy to talk more, just upload some of photo I like~

this is my photo, I like this photo~XD

still my photo, looked like star enter the VIP room!! wkaka, perasan pulak ><

photo with my Chinese boy juniors..GOH and SIA. Cute boys~

photo with roomate yang tak betul XD...

photo with "Gay partner" wkakaa...is it looked like Gay!!! YES, I'm...so what~ hahaha lolzxzxz..please lah people, open uo mind sikip, mcm ni jer cakap orgn gay!lolzxzx.  FUZK UUUUUUU!!! XP.

Going back, lucky de~

.....^^....wkakkakaa....like this photo~

Okie, that's all photos, lazy to upload more~88

Crazy day~

haha....just back from shopping...
went with my sakai friend,also coursemate ,also roomate..mohd.akmal...
he bought the DSLR 5100....best gila....I hope to get one soon....hehe...it made me felt more interesting in photographic...
and I bought the broadband...Maxis punya...because it is more good using in umk dan penang....but my home ,i dun noe...
hahahahaa........told a lot of crazy btw us, laughing and laughing....stupid enough words from us.hemn, of course, me more...haha..
okie, now is tried using my broadband...wow...satisfied....
haish~rm58 per month....must keep my mouth in food due to replace payment for broadband de...huhhuhu~

Gurau2

"minta maaf kpd sesiapa yg pernah sedih2 atau kecewa2 disbbkan aku selalu ckp gurau mcn jahat bg kamu, aku ingat org yg aku buat gurau2 tu boleh terima just as fun, tetapi......haha......okie,not more gurau dah , sori yer kawan2~ ><"

 this is my post one fb tonight...actually i wan to continuos the sentences after tetapi...

Tetapi, ada lah orng yg sy memang tau dia benci style sy tu, ckp bad thng kah sy bg org lain...haha.. 

dun worry lah, sy memang tak marah kah kamu siapa siapa tu.....jz for joking avoid boring nia...

sorry banyak2 k.><

that is why my secondary school friends said im noob..

that is why my kmp friends said im sakai..

that is why my uni friends said im bongok..

but, not all friends here are accept me rather than all kmp and secondary school friends were accept me..okie....

dun ask me why so silent next time or got problem ok...........this is why done before...

haish~susahnya hidup....tapi penuh cabaran, nice!!!! ><

Happy dokumentari vs Rubbish piss off mood

Today, my group's documentari is finished, nice video clip between.
It got fun! all our idea, just to make audience not will feel to bore in watch our video.
hahahaaa...nice job....
okie, this work is finished. ><

 Falsafah ilmu, yerrr~
i cnt undestand lah~...huh...
walaupun xundestand, i oso buat jer lah...
at lease...at lease...siap sudah...>< haha




shitty..........thing........
remind about friends....haish~friends again....
what's wrong with me...lolzz
did you know how hurt is it when you tried your best to friend again with the wrong'people!!
but, the problem is...the wrong'people still jual mahal and reject for anything...lolz..
You girls never know what my feeling, why I'm sensitive like this:

01. when I tried to friend him again, he told me : just treat him as transparent!!!
02. when I tried to asked for the reason why he acted so, he just told me : not reason to you, something cannot tell you, only the suitable people can shared to, she more understand..but,boy, the thing is, this is our problem, you should let me know, not her!!.
03.when I tried my hard to fix our situation, to asked u wanna to sit together on bus (when before gone to second voluntary vet) u jz reply me, u r perfect to sit alone, its empty..bt did u know hw I tried my hard to open mouth to told to u..haish~
04. when I tried to have dinner with him together, he just told me : not...I'm not hungry...but....went with some~

so..tats all still my false???

 sound hurt like...~but I;m okie...I also dun noe what wrong with me..he hurt me, wrote stupid on FB more than 3 time, he started to ignored, he started to talk my bad at my back to some coursemate...
but did u know what was the most hurt from u to me, is..that time u post on FB about friend,coursemate and roomate thing, I angry and msg u " then, is it I'm uo friend not" .....what the great hurt msg from u was : "I dun noe, I cnt answer u, I also dun noe what is friend to be"....that time u always with uo FASA friends, 4gt us, said what this my friend do what do what , this my friend buy what buy what...then how dare u tell me dun noe what is friend er!!!!!!!!! tis was what i angry very!!!..and i pun reply u with very cool down mood : okie, I saw u answer clearly, tq for hurt".......

u said,I treat everyone Great, but not for you.....when u said this,have u try to think why I act so..
I tell u, I treat u as the paling best and as my best friend before..we can shared everythng...
but, as time gone, I know wat u dislike, u had told me, i rmb, u said u dislike ppl touch u, dislike ppl like childish, dislke ppl what and what, all i rmb, and I jz dun acted such thing with u as u said u dislike...mana tau, u said I'm treat u different..what the Great!!!fuck u boy!!!!   what the hell with u boy....is it u think boy can not be best friend, must be girl?? as u think, fuck, I know u...damn!  u made me treat different to u man, u made it!! if u cn treat me like them, I will treat double good to u, this is hw i treat friend.....lolz.

01.when I decided to stop msg him any notice as he said i disturb his life before, but I still asked one my closer friend help to msg him any notice..
02. when I saw he dun noe trip or class, and just went with blur blur, I pun felt kesian him, msg him again nx notice...huh..I'm stupid.
03. when he stay another blok, is his choose, but I still kesian help him take book and assignment paper...
04. when he said alone, I also chat with him on FB chatting, but he stop~
05. when he said face financial critical, I pun msg him, if need, can borrow from me...enough stupid me again!

huh~so suffer to be uo friend? or, only me??
I dun know you, really lah boy....
just due to you, I'm sad and down...
just due to you, I angry with around...
just due to you, I loss myself.....
why I need?? I also dun noe....

I'm still not a friend??? not enough I do for you....??
what you saw just my superficial, hard to u...
but, never see my internal...help u...........huh~


one thing I need to let SHE know..
hey girls,you said u girls know this boy first, this is the point..
but I need you to know this, I spent my time with u girls more....tq~
and one thing to tell u,
i dun wan to fighting for everything..
its tired u know? or in uo mind u always wan to fight with who else..
so u said so...very disappointed to saw u wrote there..
U r sensitive, u admit it.
do u know what is the benefit to a sensitive ppl?
they are the group of ppl who can more take care to their friends feeling..
because they know what the reason can change one mood in a moment...
but, you din not made it.
so~......
I hope I can let you know it, but I scared you sensitive again...
so..nevermind lah~
i said again..I just treat everyone as friends~~~
including you, my friend~

I know I'm not your part,
but I really think I'm your friend~

Heaven and Hell, distance only 0.1mm.

Genting trip~2011

Very happy to had the trip which hold up by every year within my kapsiao members, all are present, Lim chong han, wanling, helen, and hyen....and some of my kmp'friends were join us too, telvin tey, alex chan, ho we xing...and went to shopping together including david thoo, and alan liuw...
wow...~ amazing to had met up with all, haha..the feeling was nice...
I gonna observed all of us are become mature in face, if talk negative, it is mean old lah..haha..
but, it is good thing, that is mean we are grown up day by day...
nice to meet all, hope to meet up again.
really appreciated I have such friends...
one year din't meet up, but the feeling to each others is still same like the previous,
never strange, never cool, never forget, never pressure when the time we are together...
close, warm, keep memories, happy and pleasure....hemn..thanks you all!!.

I love this picture, edited by me..nice....kapsiao family,always together..^^

 

 

have made 4 new friends at Genting.....^^

the photo of my four daughters and 3 new girl friends...^^...all are beauty!.

have lunch together with David thoo and alan liuw..,at KL, chilli restaurant....delicious food between.^^

SEE!!! how different KL and Kelantan food!!! LOlz....

the first met and first picture with my daughter, wanling punya boyfriend...good ppl btw..nice boy!.wisg wanling gt sweet life from him.

Is time to said good bye..TT...meet you all next year ok..^^..our target: Taiwan!! Go Go GO!!!.haha.

The happy time was past very fast.,passing without wait for any thing....but, will always keep the nice memories in heart. ^^

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That time I sitting alone on the bus, thinking for eveything in my life..
the inbox was disturb and effect my mood,
I do not know what point she sent me by that color time...
sudden dark in my brain and heart,.
broken again...
but I just accept as I have prepared to face every thing..

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reached hostel, I saw that inbox, and I decided to reply the honest and real answer by next day,
because I was tired that time,
not more energy to think anything,
in mind, just wanna sleep..

force and force, I wrote all all my feeling and thinking with a very honest mind..
what the Great God to me is...
she just blame and blame, wrong and wrong me again...
never and ever try to think why people said so..
and ....
really really tired within such people...
I dun care for this kind of friend already...
I cannot always to understand you all,
but how about you and you,
never and never understand my feeling..
thanks God,
it is my cabaran in life...
I'm grown up..
Important is...I'm honest to all...
I dun made fake like one...
try to think youself...
dun always blame people false, as I know you...

try to think, if i really to told uo bad in uo back, why I need to msg to uo closer friend, I'm not such stupid people..its a way as I tell you...and I mention a lot in msg and inbox, you were not awake and try to think what I want to mean...disappointed and disappointed....
I dislike cheat, hope u always remember...

between, I thank to you all too,
was my good friend before..
but I'm tired, and I cannot follow up any more.
sorry, dun made it, please STOP...
you are.....

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beside honest,
every people have do wrong thing, just try to forgive and help to improve them,
this is what I defined friend..
I dun want  just wanna try to got the benefit from some one and then do nothing help to them, seem like just used...and cheat yourself...
okie...I leave them...
thanks God~awake me ^^