06/01/11

Today is my last day stay as people 20 years old, and after today, I'm real adult already..21 years old.
haha....erm, hemn, erm, hemn.....
what I need to do in this special day? last day....
haha,not idea yet....
In my brain now just gonna to study more deeper for Immunology as I'm felt guilty and helpless when saw my Immunology lecturer is feeling disappointed to us this is due to he is felt we are dun know about Immunology..
aiyor~Dr ar Dr, I think you dun made yourself too stress bah~I can manage us-selft well de, like the last time , you are too nervous to us because Biochemistry, but see!!! still got A, and many was A- and B+, not bad not bad, no one fail!!!! is it GREAT!!!! haha
and , hope you can slow down you talking speed lah, we are not "race absorpter", some are slow, like me, slow in thinking one!, so please, SLOW SLOW SLOW. and especially when you are asking question to us k. huhu.
one more, you notes is easily to understand but what made us blur and brain shock is your question lah, some was too blur and difficult, but really interesting to know.
ok, never mind, I will try my very best to score this subject, this is because I love this subjects actually and I dun hope you are disappointed as our result under your leader.
huh~ icic, this is the wish in my last day before 21 years old I think.
hahahahahahhahahahahhahahahahahhahahhahahaha.........

I love my parents birthday present for my 21 years old actually, my mom had given me a gold necklace with a small gold key ,this is mean I'm adult and random and have the permission from them already.

and my dad, hahaha. muaks, he knows I wan to buy new phone and love nokia N8 before (as I had mention him before, so he knows lah), then he was bank in thousand more to my account, let's me to buy my love phone. wkakakakkakaa...~~ thank papa!!.

Thank my parents, I love you both actually, very very very !!!!!!!!!!!!. MUAKS!!!!

Maybe now not the best time to be a good son to you, but dun worry, I will be a  good son to you both, I will give you double what I have gain from you both. ^^.
but, sometime and some thing maybe I was and I will very hurt to you both as I know whatever pass or in the future, I really hope you both can forgive my wrong and accept what I am, no more other reason, this is just because I'm your son and you are my parents. ^^
Thanks and Sorry.
To all my friends also, you all are my outside sibling, Thanks and Sorry.

寻寻觅觅

其实，我还是活在寻寻觅觅间，一年了。
谁会发现我而我会发现谁呢？
每遇上一个人，都会有那么的一段情，
情深情浅则看你如何看待人家。

我，活在怀疑下

常常怀疑自己的人，

会快乐吗？

我，活在恐惧中，

常常在恐惧中的人，

会快乐吗？

我，活在欺骗中，

常常在欺骗自己的人，

会快乐吗？

我的心确实是被真心给埋没了，

所以选择的却是怀疑自己，欺骗自己，恐惧当中。

慢慢的，

我也忘了如何把真心拿出来；

慢慢的，

我也忘了如何让人看出我的真与假；

慢慢的，

我也忘了如何对自己坦白；

慢慢的，

我也忘了怎样才是坦白。

我忘了，我不会了，我不懂了。。。。

我，我，我，我，在欺骗自己。。。

我学会了如何欺骗自己的真心，

我学会了如何隐藏自己的真心。

所以我无奈，

所以我生气，

所以我放弃，

所以我远离了。

waiting....

2011...haha
I'm waiting.......
I'm thirsting.......
I'm dreaming....
I will got it soon....
When I woke up from nap last evening, I received a msg from my mom, she told me some secrete.It made me felt I'm stay in bahagia and appreciated. ^^
haha...first, thanx to my dear papa....
this is my best present from you in this year...
I'm appreciate it...thanx a lot...
and also mama'present....haha.
although I'm not home that time, but I'm missing you all really..
I love you both very...
Dun worry for uo son here k, I'm fine.
But some time is really emo or stress anything,
dun worry, I can face it by myself...
DEAR MAMA & PAPA, my first wish sure is for u both,
HEALTH AND STAY SWEET ^^
c u both soon.

somehow...

somehow life made me become more not willing to talk more.
I hate to talk and shared opinion/idea.
talk more wrong more, then made more ppl angry.
at lease when my words sharp I'll say sori to.
YES, jz go away be very yourself chia~
no need to change anymore.

2010/01/01 New Year Start~

now is 2010/01/01
huh~I have a nice count down activity with few of my coursemates at PCP, Pantai Cahaya.
This trip is carry out with very suddenly for me without any plan.
I just finished shopping with 3 friends at KBmall and met coursemate here, then plan to followed up to go PCP,Pantai Cahaya....
2010/12/31 shopping mood is ....dun noe how to brief and no word to explain...damn! Its really destroy by some one, why we asked him to join us ar! really damn n shit...this is first time I went out with him, he is a lot of complained!!!!!! but done nothing for us..!!! lolx. no more next time!. but this is the last bad memory in 2010, I'll try to forgot it de.haha. It not important in my life~
I'm felt sorry and guilty to Franky when saw his post on FB, I dun noe what he is felt worst to, but Happy New Year!. Next time if shopping we dun ajak that ppl lah, then we can buy a lot and a lot of clothes we like to and more enjoy yet as last time.
and felt kesian to my roomate~

2010 last day activities:
5pm : KBmall
~bowling
~watched phone, plan to buy new, bt a lot of bad comment from him.destroy mood
~McD (first time I ate McD,its my last dinner in 2010)
~buying 3 new clothes as the last present in 2010 for self

11pm: going to PCP, Pantai Cahaya with my coursemates.They are nice and crazy.
haha.
whatever, I'm enjoyed with them more.
I'm shared them what I want to talk to,
I'm shared them what the good memories in 2010,
I'm shared them what my bad memories in 2010,
I'm shared them what I wish to in this new year.
This same to them, we are sharing~.
Maybe they were feel I'm weird as why I'm so nice to shared them with very my own things so suddenly!~
haha, I had told them, you girls is very lucky, as bring me here, have a very nice environment to shared anythings and withoud stress..
I'm listen for the sea sound,
I'm wet my face with a small rain water,
I'm looked the anythings around here without thinking,
and the wind is blow cross my face softly and non-stop,
its cold but~ I like it !!!!!
when I first see the sea, my mood is light up with very fast!.
just feel I'm son of sea. haha.
really enjoyed and relax sit at here and listen to the sea wave sound...^^
p/s: si bongok abe akmal ni, why back so early!. the aim we move to PCP is for count down ma!!! ish~
nvm lah, I'm really enjoyed it. just like a very small party.
after 2hours here, we were move back with a tired body but brilliant mood~

the things I'm learn in year 2010:

01. The world is as big as possible, nothing is impossible, so what to do is accept.
02. The people who most important to us is our family,try say thank to parents always.
03. The people who made u grown up is our friends, selection friends is important without race different.
04. The people who can let us live happy everytime is ourself, so love uoself k.

I more understand myslef in year 2010 :

01. I'm simple boy, really. but jz up to uo attitude looked at me.
02. I'm complex. I'm difficult to understand by anyone.
03. I'm friendly.
04. I'm friendless.
05. I'm quiet.
06. I'm crazy.
07. I'm kind.
08. I'm pemarah.
09. I'm mature.
10. I'm childish.

what I like:

01. I like simple act.
02. I like simple think.
03. I like simple talk.
04. I like simple life.
05. I like simple people.
06. I like simple observe
07. I like simple guess.
08. I like simple people.
09. I like ppl act natural
10. I like ppl ask for my opinion and feeling.

what I dislike:

01. I dislike to stay complex.
02. I dislike to talk more.
03. I dislike to stay very silent.
04. I dislike to hate any people
05. I dislike hate by any one
06. I dislike to love some.
07. I dislike people to ask me same thing every day,such as, do u finish study it, what u study to,....lame lol~
08. I dislike people dun respect me, I hope all my friends understand it, when I say I dun wan then mean I really dun wan to do it, when I wan I will tell u automatic,dun force me do thing I dislik; when I say dun ask then mean DUN ASK,I would not answer U and I will angry really.
09. I dislike ppl who is easily to give up (although somehow I'm).

I wish all things I hope to will be success in this year and all the best to all my friends.
Wish and wish, God bless all.~

p/s: actually now I'm moody, so I also not so spirit to explain in word with what My feeling just now. so, enjoyed by uoself k. ^^

2010/12/30

yup, now is 2010/12/30.
today is the last two day of 2010, it will be end very soon.
what I need to do before end up 2010?
what I can to do before end up 2010?
what I should do before end up 2010?
Need, Can , Should...they are different in meaning...~
Then, how about for my coming 2011?
what I need to do for this very new year come?
not idea...
because my life here, beside book, then food..and book again...
I'm not idea what to do really.
but, whatever boring and alone feeling is now,
I will try my best to brilliant up my very own life.

p/s: although dun noe y my gud friend+coursemate+roomate is feeling stress tonight,but hope he will be ok on next day ~~ 

picture..

haha. I like my this picture.
I'm looked cute in this picture, although I'm cute actually. LOLx..jz kidding.
But, my roomate said it looked like a girl also.
whatever lah, is me!!..^^

^^..very cute right, seems looked like a Korean singer~XD